Tuesday, October 3, 2017

how to get out of your own way

My mind was swirling last night when I tried to sleep.  
I decided not to just lay there.  I got out of bed and went into my studio.
I pulled out supplies - water color paper, loose charcoal, charcoal pencils, PanPastels.
I said a little prayer of surrender...
I began...
she intuitively appeared
As much as I don't like to admit it there are times when 
fear, doubt, and worry creep into my thoughts and heart. 
I feel like I should have already dealt with this fear stuff and it should never rear it's ugly presence again.  
Then BOOM... here I am.  Wrapped up in it again!
I've identified what some of the outside triggers are.  Most times I am ready to meet them head on.  
Then there are times when all of sudden I'm in their grip.
To be honest, it usually happens when I have been remiss on focusing on the good in my life.
When I am lacking in my daily positive reinforcements.
It comes down to this...
I have choices.
I could hang onto those outside triggers and blame them for my fear
I can accept reality that there is nothing or no one that can stop me from being who I am suppose to be or what I am suppose to doing with my life, EXCEPT me.
I get in my own frickin' way!  
The negative emotions and thoughts wrap themselves around me until I feel paralyzed as if I have no way out.  That's simply not true.
The truth is... I ALWAYS have a choice

I detest being in a negative space.  
It's when I do the hard soul work, focus on finding resolves,  make the necessary changes, and get back into my positive  routines  that I come back stronger,  perhaps a little wiser.
I'll remember this...
The only thing in my way is me.

Thank You for your 
continued support and encouragement.


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