how to get out of your own way

My mind was swirling last night when I tried to sleep.  

I decided not to just lay there.  I got out of bed and went into my studio.

I pulled out supplies - water color paper, loose charcoal, charcoal pencils, PanPastels.

I said a little prayer of surrender...

I began...

she intuitively appeared

As much as I don't like to admit it there are times when 

fear, doubt, and worry creep into my thoughts and heart. 

I feel like I should have already dealt with this fear stuff and it should never rear it's ugly presence again.  

Then BOOM... here I am.  Wrapped up in it again!

I've identified what some of the outside triggers are.  Most times I am ready to meet them head on.  

Then there are times when all of sudden I'm in their grip.

To be honest, it usually happens when I have been remiss on focusing on the good in my life.

When I am lacking in my daily positive reinforcements.

It comes down to this...

I have choices.

I could hang onto those outside triggers and blame them for my fear

OR

I can accept reality that there is nothing or no one that can stop me from being who I am suppose to be or what I am suppose to doing with my life, EXCEPT me.

I get in my own frickin' way!  

The negative emotions and thoughts wrap themselves around me until I feel paralyzed as if I have no way out.  That's simply not true.

The truth is... I ALWAYS have a choice

I detest being in a negative space.  

It's when I do the hard soul work, focus on finding resolves,  make the necessary changes, and get back into my positive  routines  that I come back stronger,  perhaps a little wiser.

I'll remember this...

The only thing in my way is me.

Thank You for your 

continued support and encouragement.