Saturday, February 22, 2014

painting up a storm

I wanted to take this time to let you know what I've been up to.  Since I lost my job in January I have been spending more time in my studio.  I have set my intention to learn as much as I can in order to feel more confident to teach others.   I have been painting up a storm and learning many new techniques.   Unfortunately, I can not show you those pieces because I have been submitting to magazines.  When you do that they request that you do not post on the Internet.  Show and tell will have to wait for another day. :-(

I have 2 new artsy friends that I met at an art class and I've been sharing painting time with them.  Carol, and I have consistently been getting together at least once a week to create.  My desire is to surround myself with like minded people.  After working in an office all by myself for 14 years I am thirsty to be around uplifting and inspiring people.   This leads me to my 2nd intention - I am developing an artist community to surround myself with.   I want to strengthen my friendship with my artist friends I already have.  When you ladies read this call me and let's create something fun together. Linda Kinnman let's learn about ice resin since we already have all the stuff.   Linda Barutha wanna finish the joint compound piece you started?  Kelly Hoernig I just love hanging out with you and always learn so much.

In December I showed you  the 7x12 sheets I had completed.  Each one  begins as left over paint from  my brushes, tray, or whatever.  I just put the paint down on the art paper then finish it later.  I create art with abandon~I just paint without concern about the outcome.  I am gathering so many of these pages I decided to make a binder to put them in.  The first photo is the front of my journal. Fun-Fun-Fun!

What have you been up to?

Thanks for stopping by.

Saturday, February 8, 2014

forgiveness

I came across this quote the other day and it just stuck with me.  So one morning before my meditation I made a list of all the people I feel had hurt or betrayed me.  Thanks goodness the list wasn't too terribly long.  I was still surprised at some of the names that showed up.  I went one step further and wrote down what I perceived they had done to me that hurt so much, that had caused me to hold onto resentment.  I'll be honest, by the time I was done writing my hand was extremely fatigued and I had used up alot of space in my journal.   This whole experience took me down memory lanes where I had resisted going and in some cases I cried, very hard.   It was difficult to relive, in my heart, the pain and sadness of what had happened, to revisit the friendships lost and the connections lost.  Yet I felt like this was exactly what I needed to do.  I took the time to, individually, forgive each and every person. This is when I cried the hardest.  I am aware that forgiveness doesn't mean that it's OK what the other person did, because it isn't.  I may or may not ever have a relationship with any of these people again and I am fine with that.  I am making a choice to no longer allow what happened to reside in my heart.  The truth is...we are all just people doing the best we can,  living and learning about life.  I know I have hurt people, too,  said things and done things that I am not proud of which is why I was #1 on my list of forgiveness.  I know that I am better today than I use to be and as time goes on, if I am vigilant,  I will be better tomorrow and all the days to come.

Later in the day I re-read my entry in my journal and I was blown away by what I learned.  Everyone, I mean everyone,  I had on list that I felt had wronged me actually had in actuality provided me with a valuable lesson.  I have always believed that "when the student is ready the teacher will appear"and that is what had happened.  Only in these times the teacher was disguised.

Thank You for the gift of being able to look deeper into my heart and for learning to let go.  The more I practice letting go of resentments the more room I will have in my heart for love.
                                     
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