Thursday, May 17, 2012

connecting my dots

It's a beautiful early Thursday morning as sit in my studio writing in my journal.  A journal I started after I put myself thru The Artist's Way book, which I would highly recommend to everyone.  Sometimes I journal about "surface issues" of things that are on my mind.  Thru the process of writing I have revealed how those "surface issues" take much deeper things into things I need to look at.  Sometimes good-sometimes not so good.  I feel courageous and vulnerable at the same time as I explore.  I do know for fact that I am becoming more aware.

For those of you who know me, know that I am basically a private person.  I am not one who can easily confide in someone else if something is bothering me.  I know it's a trust issue.  I use to just hold everything on the inside and now I am able to write in my journal.  I just watched Oprah's Special Edition Life Class (I have all of them taped) where she showed pieces of interviews with well known people.  They all talked about how their past has shaped them.  I am going to embark upon looking at my past, writing about my past, and learning from my past.  I can readily acknowledge how events from my past have enforced my fears but I know there is more to my story.  And fear should not be the primary outcome.  If everything happens for a reason then I believe there's more to my story than fear.

artwork by Kelly Rae Roberts
As I finished writing the previous sentence, I paused for a moment and my eyes were immediately drawn to this piece of art on my wall.  I just love how messages can come to me when I most need it.  Everything in my life has shaped me to be the person I am today.  I want to take my life experiences, my past, and choose to look at it from a more conscious position.  To choose to look at those times with, also, a more grateful perspective  instead of the poor me view.  I guess, in short, I want to know me better.  When I learn and fully accept my past I will then be able to see myself and my future better.   As Steve Jobs said, "You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards.  ...believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well worn path."  That's what I want!!!!!!  To connect my dots and move forward with enough confidence to continue to follow my heart.

I do have something, as they say, "in the pot stirring" and I'll tell you more later when I've done more soul searching.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

two more days

As the Grand Opening + "FREE SHIPPING" of my Etsy shop draws near, I wanted to let everyone know that there are 2 more days left. 

My target was to sell 20 items, as I write this post,  I have sold 11 items.
I am pleased with that but as with any goal, it's always great to reach it.  I haven't given up hope yet!

Thanks to everyone for your encouragement and support as I journey on my creative path.  YOU mean alot to me.

Monday, May 7, 2012

I belong to an ATC card swap.  (In case you don't know what that is, ATCs are 2.5" x 3.5" cards that you create magic on-using any medium you want.)  You make 3 and send them to the hostess for the month and she returns 3 from other people.  You can get some really creative stuff!  They may be small but they are powerful.  Sometimes quite the challenge to figure out what to do, too.   If you have the opportunity to join a swap I would highly recommend.  It's just another way to strech your creative muscles.

I had fun with this month.  The theme was April showers bring May flowers.  I thought I would share them with you.  Aren't they cute?

Thursday, May 3, 2012

attitude demons

I must confess. 
Lately, I feel like I have been fighting "attitude demons".  I'm sure you guys know what I'm talking about.  I know I'm not unique here. I have been feeling unenthusiastic and down right tired. My mom would have said, "you have a pissy attitude".  And she would have been right.  I know the best thing to do is feel my feelings before releasing them.  Writing in my journal is one way I do that.  I simply write everything about the way I feel.  I sometimes repeat the same thing over and over again.  By the time I'm done I get closer to understanding more about who I am.

Thru  my journaling, I came to realize that my negative attitude came from the child persona within me.  My adult side can reason, understand, and accept.  But my child doesn't understand.

I decided to create a piece of art as my reminder.  I believe you can do almost anything if you have the right attitude.

By the way, I'm better now.
I choosing a good attitude!
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