Remember my previous post The Story Behind the Art. (click the link to read the post to understand this the rest of the story) It is a story about me creating, what I thought would be, my signature piece. Here is a photo just before I did the final steps to glue her down. I was so very excited about this piece being my signature piece, the one who would identify me as an artist. I had worked on her for about 2 days and on the 3rd day after drying all night I discovered she was ruined. She had big bubbles all over her face and it looked like she had multiple hard cysts. Needless to say...my heart was broken. It took me a little while, using centering techniques, before I was able to accept it, learn some lessons and moved on. I was able to salvage her head, not sure what to do with it. Last night as I sat in my studio, I held her head in my hand and a little feeling of being deflated crept in. After all, I had high hopes for her.
I turned on some music to divert my attention. A song by Sara Bareilles came on and I literally felt chills come all over me. I stopped-I listened!! This song was speaking to me. I went to the internet to retrieve the lyrics . Here is the link for the lyrics for you to read. One step further, I checked YouTube for a music video and found one. I thought the video was in alignment with the song (please listen/watch the video on the left side) OMGoodness! I was blown away. This song was speaking to me in magical ways!!! There are ABSOLUTELY no words to describe the experience I was having. It was within this time, I knew, for sure, what I was to do with my the salvaged face/head.
Therefore; I began.......... she is not perfect and wasn't intended to be. Her face is warped and disfigured from her experiences. To me she represents the broken places in all of us. Not just what people see on the outside but what is hidden deep within, most times we are the only ones who know. All of the fear, insecurities, sadness, rejection, loneliness, judgement, the list could go on forever. As the song says "kept on the inside and no sunlight~sometimes a shadow wins"
So here she is-being brave. This message is as much for me as it is for anyone else. Thank You, Sara Bareilles, for your song and for your message.
I wanna see you be brave.