I have been asking the Universe/God to open my heart. I know that it is time to rid myself of this protective shield I have built around me. With that comes many moments of hearty laughter along with moments of tears. Hell, I find myself tearing up at commercials on TV. I have shed many tears while watching The Voice as I see those people achieving their dreams. In those times when I would cry in public I know that I have felt awkward, even apologetic. Now I am see instead of feeling shame I should be utterly grateful.
A couple weeks ago I went to a Speak Easy. A tent folded card was placed on our chair and there was a word on the inside for us to speak about or pass speaking all together. Before I even looked inside I had already determined not to say anything because I felt uncomfortable (afraid). Right before it was my turn I opened my card to see the word TRUST. The flood gates opened, tears began flooding down my face. Between sobs I was able to utter out what the word TRUST had meant to me in that moment. Yes, I was a little embarrassed but I felt I was in a safe place. I felt even more comforted when the woman next to me gently put her hand on my shoulder and softly said she was the one who cried the week before.
When I was in my forties was a time that could say that I trusting. I believed in my purpose. I was challenging myself and doing things I once thought I couldn't. Stepping outside my comfort zone(s). OK, admittedly sometimes being forced out. Challenging myself. It was a time that I took chances, believing with all my heart that everything was going to be OK. And you know what... it was OK. I look now at myself with understanding a renewed conviction.
I AM LEAVING BEHIND WHAT NO LONGER SERVES ME AND REPLACING IT WITH TRUST.
Powerful post and lesson about the trust we need to have in ourselves in order to achieve our fullest potential!
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