A friend of mine posed a question on FaceBook the other day asking us to share something about our self that others do not know. I responded back by saying, "from the outside I appear to have it all together when in reality most of the time
I fake it until I make it". That does not imply that I am phony it simple says that I will take risks to step out beyond my comfort zone even with my knees shaking and I haven't a clue what to do next. YET... there are times that fear has engulfed me so tightly that I can't seem to get loose. In the past I would beat myself up over it to the point that I felt like I couldn't overcome. I am glad to say that hardly ever happens to me anymore. When fear of reaching out of my comfort zone presents itself I get quiet and allow myself to feel the feeling, then I release it. I often come up with a way to encourage myself to move forward.
Which brings me to the point of this post.
Lately I have been feeling the intense and exciting urge to paint big. I've been preparing by buying large canvases and gradually increasing my acrylic paint supply to the 4oz. bottles. I am enrolled in an on-line class with Donna Downey called 48 Weeks that has stretched me to paint in a journal that measure 16.5" x 21". This is the largest I have painted. Now it's time to step it up. I will admit to you that fear is rearing to the surface again yet I know there is nothing to fear. This is what I am doing to overcome this feeling. I have hung a blank canvas on the wall in our Living Room. My husband just shook his head when he saw it. I believe it is just the little bit of encouragement that will turn this big white canvas into a beautiful piece of art.
In the meantime, I will fake it til I make it. When guests come over and and see the blank white canvas on the wall I will confidently say, "I'll be painting a piece of art to take it's place."
Oh, have fun with those paints and canvas!
ReplyDeleteI have plenty of faith to carry you friend!
ReplyDeleteTeresa, I know this routine all too well... I believe all artists do. Best of luck tackling the large canvases! :)
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