Thursday, March 24, 2016

Learning to trust

90% of the time, I meditate daily, at least 15minutes in the morning and 15 minutes in the evening.  Most of time I find it fairly easy to quiet my mind or at least let the thoughts come and go as they please, without judgment.

In the winter or rainy days I sit in my living room with the blinds closed to keep the outside world at bay.  Incense burning (hmmm... I love incense) in the background. This morning I'm sitting on the couch in my comfy lavender bathrobe with Marmalade (my cat) sitting on my lap.

This meditation was an exception to my norm.  I am well on my way into a realm of relaxation when I felt this incredible urge to STOP, get my journal, and sketch me meditating.  I mean it was an appeal I could not deny.  I remarked out loud, "OK.  If that's what I am suppose to do, so be it".

         Here is the drawing     -------------->

For those of you who follow me on  FaceBook know that I want to be looser in my art/drawings.  For the past several days,  I have been practicing by drawing quickly while I am taking a break from my yard work.

I am finding it so rewarding that I have been able to get out of the way and simply do what I am guided to to.  We all have those moments, don't we?

I am learning to trust.   Not only in my capability to draw, even tho that is big for me, it goes beyond that.  I am learning to trust ME, again.  I have obstacles that have been weighing heavy on my mind and sadly enough on my heart.  Clouding over my beliefs in myself and what my purpose is.  I remembered a quote I read a long time ago, "be grateful for all gifts given to you even tho you don't the way it is wrapped".  As I continue to trust I am, once again, seeing that what I have been perceiving as obstacles are just gifts/opportunities given to me in a way that I do not like.  Nonetheless, they are gifts, when I see them in a new way they become opportunities for growth instead of thorns in my side.  That makes my heart smile!


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