Tuesday, February 5, 2013

today I.....

      Today I turn 60 years old.  

 Usually I don't give to much thought to what my age is but this one had my attention for weeks.  I asked my friends and family not to do any of those black balloons or over the hill type sentiments because I was having a hard time with this number.

Needless to say the question I have been pondering is,  "why is this bothering so much?"  I've asked myself the question and journaled about it.  I came to this conclusion.
 I am no different that I was yesterday.  I didn't get more gray hair than I had yesterday.  My body doesn't ache anymore than it did yesterday. Some of my body parts (ladies you know which ones I'm talking about!)  aren't sagging anymore than they were yesterday.  I didn't wake up with more wrinkles than I had yesterday.  I'm sure by now you get the point.
I am no different than I was yesterday.  
It's all in the attitude.

My husband arranged a surprise birthday dinner on Sunday and invited all of our kids and grand kids.  At one point I had taken my granddaughter to the bathroom, she was talking to me and calling me Grandma.  There was a lady in the bathroom who said "you don't look like a Grandma".  I smiled and said thank you then came very, very close to telling her that I was almost 60, too.    I held myself back deeming it was too much information.

I confessed to my husband that part of the reason that this birthday is bothering me is that I have discovered my creative passion in my art and I have so much I want to do with it.  By getting older I felt that my time was running out and I may not get the time to do all I want to do.   Logically I know this is ridiculous but it was real in my heart.
Once I said those words out loud and heard myself saying them  it was like a light bulb had gone on. 
What I've known all along is there are just some things you can't change and getting older is one of them.  What I can change is how I react and that is what I am going to focus on. 

Today I celebrate my life.  I will celebrate all the benefits that come along with being a creative Late Bloomer .  I am alive, alert, awake, enthusiastic!

 I'll wear my tiara and go about my life, full steam ahead.  


  1. I know just how you feel Teresa! Too many paintings ~ too little time. I know you will work at your heart's desire and it will be wonderful, just like you are. I wish you a very happy birthday my friend!

  2. Happy Birthday dear friend!

    I love this passage from Julia Cameron's book The Artist's Way: "QUESTION: Do you know how old I'll be by the time I learn to play the piano? ANSWER: The same age you will be if you don't." We come into our art when we are supposed to. And think about all the fun you can have now that you have! :)))

    xo, Erin

  3. Happy Birthday Teresa! I hope your day is filled with joy, love, and lots of smiles!

    I wanted to tell you that I completely relate to EVERYTHING you said in this post because I will be 60 on Valentine's Day, and it is very much on my mind. Like you, I have been getting that running-out-of-time feeling. Sometimes I think, here I am almost 60, and I'm just now starting to get on a real roll with making art! (I only discovered my love of it 10 years ago starting with art quilts which quickly led to mixed media, art journaling, painting, etc.)

    You are so right about attitude though! When those feelings crop up, I remind myself how good life is these days because I truly do love my life! Each and every day is a beautiful blessing and I enjoy them. What more could I ask for!

    I also think there is a certain idea in people's minds (mine included) of what 60 is suppose to look and feel like. Now that I'm here, I don't feel like the stereotype in my mind, and I don't think I look like it either. Some folks (probably much younger) may think otherwise but phooey on them! Tee-hee-hee!

    Thank you so much for sharing your feelings. It's good to know that I'm not alone!

    Wishing You The Most Special Day Ever,

  4. A very happy birthday to you my young friend! I love your post and completely understand. Thank goodness you are wise enough to know that it's all about your attitude, not the number. I'm always busy because I don't want to miss out on doing all that I love. Us "creatives" have to stick together! Enjoy and celebrate your day!

  5. Happy Birthday sweet lady!! You look incredibly awesome for 60 years of age Teresa. And you are a grandmother... I would not have guessed that either. Embrace the decades that await your creative spirit to blossom fully!
    Have a wonderful Birthday!! xoxo

  6. Did you watch Betty White's 91 birthday party? When I am in my nineties I want to see what art you are creating, so please don't disappoint me. Have a wonderful birthday.

  7. Happy birthday even if it is a day late! That way you can extend the celebration longer!

    I am so happy to have connected with you. Your smile, your creativity, your whole attitude about life is just wonderful and inspiring.



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