It's a beautiful early Thursday morning as sit in my studio writing in my journal. A journal I started after I put myself thru The Artist's Way book, which I would highly recommend to everyone. Sometimes I journal about "surface issues" of things that are on my mind. Thru the process of writing I have revealed how those "surface issues" take much deeper things into things I need to look at. Sometimes good-sometimes not so good. I feel courageous and vulnerable at the same time as I explore. I do know for fact that I am becoming more aware.
For those of you who know me, know that I am basically a private person. I am not one who can easily confide in someone else if something is bothering me. I know it's a trust issue. I use to just hold everything on the inside and now I am able to write in my journal. I just watched Oprah's Special Edition Life Class (I have all of them taped) where she showed pieces of interviews with well known people. They all talked about how their past has shaped them. I am going to embark upon looking at my past, writing about my past, and learning from my past. I can readily acknowledge how events from my past have enforced my fears but I know there is more to my story. And fear should not be the primary outcome. If everything happens for a reason then I believe there's more to my story than fear.